1. define 'best friend' - friend that is the best.
2. how do you noe that that person is ur best friend? - cos he/she's the best.

thanx jovian, that was a great load of help. seriously. (: it actually makes sense. and im not that confused with his ans.

1. wat's the definition of 'best friends'? or issit best friends cnt be defined? - uve asked me that qns since forever. somebody who stands by ur side in times of need.
2. how do you noe that that person is ur best friend? - (i forgot wat that person ans me)

hmmm, was helpful. but im still confused.

so he/she doesnt count as ur best frens if they are embarrassed to go out with you cos of the way you act and behave right?

1. wat if its ur best fren that's making you cry?
2. hmmm... does it count if ur best fren ask if ure ok aft he/she hears you crying and choking over the phone? and then aft that try to cheer you up by suggesting that we do other things? cos that shows that he/she cares right? well, he/she dint actually said that they were gonna bury that loser that made me cry with a shovel, but yea, they bothered to hear me out and calm me down. maybe they wun bury that loser wif a shovel cos if the loser die, theyl be charged for manslaughter and theyl go to jail. so wat they are doing is rational. but all in all, THEY CARED. right.......?
3. this quote is not reli helping actually...

1. i guess this is applicable.
2. all the times when ive reli given up on myself and break down, there will forever be this one person on the other end of the phone calming me down, trying to take my mind off things, telling me funny stuffs and cracking bullshit jokes that actually kinda makes sense, but all mumbled out in the speed of light so that in the end wat i hear is rubbish that makes absolutely no sense at all. that person will also become so super childish that sometimes you reali dunno whether to be angry or to laugh at the whole thing. altho the thing is, sometimes that person gets real lost too. (sorry bout that......)
3. so altho when that person's bz, hel still ask me to chill first. i think so.
4. i think im not that confused with this quote.

1. hmmm....definitely maybe can link to this quote.
2. the trip and laugh part, yes. the run into walls part, maybe. the crying part, hmmm. definitely maybe? the best friends part......i still need time to think.
3. guess this one makes sense too?

1. is this best fren the kind where you noe for like wat, since you were babies?
2. or does this kinda best fren like, noe sth's wrong cos you told him/her alr?
3. so, it doesnt help. im still confused. but nevertheless, this kinda bestie frenship is cool. its like, its as if there's this psychic conection between the two besties. like, twins.

1. can relate. definitely can relate.
2. altho when you say forget it sometimes i dun let matters drop, but still, i eventually dropped it. i think... well, you dun drop it sometimes too.
3. i waited. every single time, i waited patiently. (: hmmm, did you?
4. I STAYED WHEN YOU SAID LEAVE ME ALONE K. cos ur face was telling me to leave you alone. cos it got so red and so black. but i stayed. and asked if you needed help for chi. you...dint. i think you dint for all pls. maybe except for the first one only.
5. yea, i open ur pencil case b4 you can even say dun touch it. altho i noe im not supposed to touch it.
6. ok....seems like all those up there applies to me, but not to you. so does that mean that i treat you as my best fren but you dun treat me as urs?
7. oh thats depressing.

1. do we have more fun than the others? in my opinion, no.

1. this is so true.
2. so i guess this quote doesnt make me confused too. (:

1. i dun get it.
2. it makes sense to me. but at the same time it doesnt make sense too.

1. the last quote for today.
2. i noe its right, i think. but i dun understand...
3. i still dun understand.

so yea, thats wat ive been thinking for the past few days. that's wat got my head jammed up. that's wat thats making me confused and screwed up and messed up. and in the end? I STILL DUN UNDERSTAND A SINGLE THING. ok, maybe i understood some. but still, im confused. im still lost. maybe all the ppl we're calling best frens all along, they're not our best frens, but rather very very very very close frens? aft all, best is only toking about one, so how issit that ppl can have more than one best fren? or maybe different ppl has different perspective of wat best frens are? but then if its like this, how do you noe that the 'best fren' part is mutal? i guess i need more time thinking. i dunno wat im trying to prove, or trying to define, or trying to label, or trying to say or wateva, i dun even noe wat im doing and why im doing this. i mean, if two frens were best frens, shldnt their trust and faith in each other be strong? so why issit that my trust and faith always get screwed and messed up by wateva others say? why issit that i feel like some element in this bestie frenship is missing? this feeling sucks. i nv tot that one day il say this, but right now, i feel that frenship is even more complicated than bgr.

it's not you, it's me.

first of, im NOT a sub fren. im not disposable. not some puppet you can play wif. (yes, thanx wx.) not some fren that you can dispose of when you finish using me. then come back to me the nxt time round when you have some kinda fucking problem you cant deal wif and need a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on. and come telling me that sorry, you dint mean to do any of that in the first place. second, fuck you. fuck off. yes. im pissed. how many fucking sorries have you said? do you even mean any of them? my life is not all about wen xiang k. there are others in my life too. yes it may seem all bout him in the past. but its over now. duncha noe, you mean juz as much as he does to me. yea, i noe ul be fucking fuming pissed when you read this. but you mean that much to me and i tried so hard to be there for you, and yes, i noe uve been there for me too. but when i reli reli reli need you, oh well, maybe i dun mean that much to you aft all. cos eventually, i always see you wif the ppl that you say makes you sad, and everytime i see yall laughing tgt, making me feeling so out. and then you juz come back and say ure sorry. you noe wat it seems like to me? it seems like you'd rather be included than left out. then have you ever tried standing in my shoes and see wat's it like? every girl in my class have their own good or best frens who are all GIRLS in the class itself. watabout me? me? i only have my best fren, who is a GUY, who has his OWN guy frens in class, who i make frens wif, and get ppl saying that I LIKE TO FLIRT WIF NCC LAND GUYS. while ure in ur own class, wif ur own GIRL frens, and telling me that you feel out. if ure feeling out, wat the fuck am i feeling then? i rmb somebody telling me in sec 2 that shel go up to the same class as me. wow. third, yes. im fucking pissed off wif you right now. the others i dun mind. cos anw, one has always been like this towards me. forever giving me that bloody black face and showing me attitude. like i dun have one, pls-.-. yea, call me a bitch, call me a slut, call me wateva, say ive changed. i dun mind. since i dun even like matter to you anymore. do i even matter to you now? do you even give a fuck to me now? who's the one who changed huh? you dun even mind if others 'snatch' you away from me, you juz go wif them. i dunno, maybe we were'nt even best frens in the first place. yes, i understand how she felt like back then now. i dunno if she'd ever forgive me, but wateva, we're classmates now. and yes, and im sorry to her now. maybe this is juz karma. so yea, ive told you, fate wins. wateva happens, happens. maybe we dun even matter to each other in the first place even. fourth, yea, im gonna be deleting this post someday. but not for now. and yes, i noe bitching about frens is hateful. and i noe i love to bitch loads bout my frens. yes, i noe im hateful. ure not the only one pissed k. there're many more out there. and yes, i noe im not the only one facing these problems. there're many more out there too. but you noe wat, its always about you. nobody ever gives a fuck as to how i feel. im not some fren that you can take advatage of k. im not some disposable sub fren. have you ever tried going through wat ive felt in sku for the past one year and dunno how many months? no? then shut the fuck up. cos uve nv stood in my shoes b4 to see wats it like for me.

1. we always take for granted that wat we have now we'll have it forever.
2. trust ur instincts. if it tells you not to take pw, DO NOT TAKE PW-.-.
3. sec 3 pw sucks to the core. cos its juz adding a burden to an alr very super heavy burden. to sum it up: its a waste of time.
4. frens inter-li yong each other.
5. frens inter-li yong and qian jiu each other.
6. at first, you give everything you can, try ur best to be a good fren to others. then, you realise, everything you did was not appreciated. in fact, it was taken for granted. after that, you start to feel, and even found out that, put aside the fren you tried so hard to be, you were always treated as 'disposable' only. finally, you give back wat you get. cos ure so sick and tired of those mind games.
7. we did not plan it to be this way. but things have got so bad between us, i don't see us ever being together ever agn. but then of cos, everything always happens for a reason. i guess it was nv meant to be, but it's juz sth we have no control over, and that's wat destiny is.
8. we can't fight fate. wateva happens, happens. fate always win. YOU HEAR THAT FATE? YOU WIN. YOU ALWAYS WIN. so leave me alone now. stop playing wif me. shoo.
9. crying is disgusting and uncomfortable. very very super.
10. sometimes i regret taking dnt.
11. i shld start focusing and study for my EOYs.
12. if you cry too much, ul start to feel like vomitting.
13. trust ur intuition.
14. rmb wat you regret was once wat you wanted.
15. if you cry too much, ul feel like vomitting AND feel like ur nose's starting to bleed.
16. hide the pain and put on a smile. soon the pain will be gone. the memories will be locked up. i think.
17. some things are better not known. curiosity killed the cat. and i reli believe it.
18. life goes on. the past is the past. nothing's ever built to last. nothing ever happens the same way twice.
19. take care of all ur valuables and ur frens' too. treat everything with responsibility.
20. life's curel. and it sucks.
21. memories love the night.
22. happy endings are for stories that are not finished yet.
23. wat's love?
24. forgive. dun forget.
25. O$P$